I only know which was is up,
because I’m so far down,
I smile and show great strength and fight,
til no one is around.
But truth be told I’m crumbling,
my fears to reach their peak,
alone in the dark, still cover my face,
to hide tears upon my cheek.
Not sure what I can say or do,
nor which path to try and take,
and then I wonder if it really matters,
I have no control of fate.
This nausea bubbling has got to be,
vulnerability overload,
and thought I’ve braved my share of anguish,
it’s my first time down this road.
If only for as brief as pause,
you ever stop to look,
I hope you’ll see how hard I fought,
this chapter of my book.
Kaci Allen 